Month: April 2017

The Soldier’s Prayer

Hello, I wrote this poem for a famous US admiral in Vietnam.  Of course, the Dept of Defense hated it.  Truth is that way so very often.  In any case, I think this is a just soldier.

The Soldier’s Prayer

Dear God of my heart and realization:
As a soldier, I have taken an oath of duty and honor
to guard and protect my fellow countrymen,
even if the price for my oath is death.

But, even more, I pray that my behavior as a soldier
is both honorable and beneficial to all mankind eventually,
and that my behavior is representative of Your Divine Goodness.

Regardless of the nature of the conflict into which I am sent as a warrior,
I pray, that I never forget that the enemy who stands across from myself,
is a man just as I am a man,
has a family which loves and wants him back home,
has suffered the loss of friends and family, as have I,
is not evil or inhumane for we are one species and one people.

It is inevitable that in war, we shall kill and maim each other,
neither of us will recover emotionally from the horror of war,
we will most likely commit many unpardonable sins against YOU,
but, I pray, that your Wisdom and Love will always be my Guide
and the Guide of my enemy, for this moment in time and forever more.

May this conflict end soon so that all of us may return to our families,
and begin to exercise a true effort to repair our disagreements for the goodness of both nations.

EsoBites: The ‘Skinny’ On the Master Within

April 23, 2017

Greetings Fratres and Sorors,

I have listened to students discuss the ‘Master Within’ for almost five decades. The explanations are most varied, often based upon unverified, specious theological dogma. It is extremely rare to find a Rosicrucian who has expended much time and conscious effort so to devise internally consistent views which are practical for moving along the mystical path.

So let us begin with discussing a few standard viewpoints:

First, students possessing a natural inclination toward Oriental Theology (all of Asia and India), commonly equate the Master Within to the Unitary Soul-Mind (the Grand ‘I’), who Creates and animates all life forms. Portions of the Living Soul of Atman are hidden within all material life forms and they must mature so to escape the physical, or the illusion of the physical, Maya, and return so to recognize they are Atman. Those of you who have read Plato and the Neoplatonists will notice much similarity between the two theologies.

A reasonable image of the connection between a creature is found in looking at an old cart wheel. The center, or hub, of the wheel is Atman. The spokes leading from the hub and stopping at distinct points upon the rim of the wheel are individual creatures. The rim itself is Maya or physical creation. The place where the spoke touches the hub is the personal sacred image of Atman which is experienced by individuals until full liberation occurs, or moksa.

As moksa takes many thousands of lifetimes to achieve, reincarnation is a universal phenomenon, generally in the form of transmigration from one creature to another depending upon how one lived ones past life. The dogma of Universal Corrective Retribution, or Karma, was created so to explain our grossly deficient and violent human natures. Karma was a method for Brahman to reeducate individuals by mandating payment for selfish and evil actions. This need to refine oneself, so to remove impurities, is catholic in scope.

It is a morally useful theology, but I am quite sure that morality is a human issue and not a Cosmic one. So I accept general cause and effect, as an observable, but is never linear over time.

This Unitary Soul-Mind, or Atman, coexists with the apersonal energies and forces sustaining and forming the Totality of Existence, Brahman. The Master Within accords with the personal Sacred Image of an adherent. Appears as Many, but is just One.

Second, students coming from an Occidental background have been educated to believe that everyone is provided an immortal soul by God which cohabitats the mortal body. The normal theology is to believe that each soul incarnates one time and must use its free choice to choose the wholesome over the unwholesome. After mortal life, one goes to heaven or hell.

In some ways, the traditional Christian view approximates the Atman view, other than the fact the Christian Godhead has three functions. In Christ’s teachings, the Holy Spirit is that portion of the Godhead which is on earth to comfort and sustain individuals.

Subsequently, the western view, even including reincarnation, would say the Master Within is the Holy Spirit, or the Paraclete. The Master Within is One and appears as One.

Third, many Rosicrucians subscribe to a view that the Master Within is perceived, as an individual unique to the student, but much more evolved and knowledgeable. When one asks, about the Master Within most cannot give a very thorough analysis. They may feel it’s presence, believing it to be from his or her own mind, rather than as one of Jung’s archetypes (without knowing of such consciously) entering into his or her mindspace and crossing the threshold into conscious awareness. It is not uncommon to relate the Master Within to angels or higher disembodied beings.

While, the phenomenal, or astral, mindspace is replete with many creatures, as is our physical, any guidance received is not the Master Within. It is simply information provided by the psychic body of another human being, djinn, or other resident.

Four, maintaining due respect for the hypotheses of others, I support the following concept as being (pun intended) the closest to actuality. Everyone who has attended a Chapter or Lodge Convocation has heard the Chaplain recite the Rosicrucian Ontology as the Colombe rises to light the candles on the Shekinah, that the Order considers Being, as the fundamental energy comprising all of Creation and even more.

For the Chaplain teaches, “To Being there has never been a beginning . . . Light is an attribute of Being . . . is always luminous in the radiation of its energy, caused by its ceaseless effort to be . . . The evolving complexity of Being gave rise to density . . .”

So one should ask, “If Being is responsible for matter, life, and mind, how does it differentiate so to be so rich as to form?”

The most appropriate answer would be to stipulate that the material, the phenomenal, and the transrational worlds (body, life, and mind) differentiate parts within by manifesting as unique families of aphysical and aphysical quanta of separated vibrations which form the various material, astral, and transrational bodies.

In other words, any person who has succeeded in attaining sufficient rebirths by conscious evolution [of his or her soul-seed] will begin formulation of an entity, I call True Self. Rather than anthropomorphizing the evolving True I, it is easier to imagine that you are growing and strengthening a pattern within the geometric mesh forming the foundation of Creation.

The True I, your individual frequency spectrum, or pattern, moves from mortal life to mortal life. It moves with the phenomenal body and so will be associated with such kesdjan body for some time after physical death. A kesdjan body joined to one iota of True I will reincarnate. Most people are too lazy to even try.

The True I retains information from your prior lives and is closely connected with Higher Intelligence. It is conscious of itself and the mortal ego awareness. However, the mortal ego awareness, or operational self, is not directly aware of the True I, presuming it possesses such entity. The operational self, when conscious, is solely aware of some of its body, its autobiographical, semantic, and procedural memories, habits and beliefs learned in life and so forth. It knows only the life experiences of its current body, generally.

When we speak of our operational self, we usually call it ‘I’ rather than me. However, the operational self is really the first identifier learned by a baby–me-me-me and mine-mine-mine. We only use the words ‘I’ and ‘me’ to differentiate between who began an action and who received the effects of such action.

This is one reason why the Rosicrucians discourage the use of ‘I’ in normal conversation until you understand the big difference. The ‘me’ is mortal, the True I is moving toward its endpoint of Immortality.

The goal of mystical studies is to have the ‘me-self’ discover and allow the True I to become the Master of the mortal and immortal selves. The True I is the Master Within and evolve with every life.

Take this out for a Sunday drive and you will find eventually that you agree with me.

So Sayeth Michael



a very long time ago,
after seven hundred million years
of violent electrical storms,
pummeling meteorite showers,
volcanoes belching minerals and moisture,
the earth cooled and was covered with murky seas.

Perceiving a wondrous opportunity,
the Awareness Absolute summoned into Its Abode,
Grandfather Wisdom and Grandmother Love.

Our Holy Awareness said,
Grandfather and Grandmother,
a beautiful new home for you, I have seen,
a green-blue planet to be,
requiring your special skills so to
attain what I think it can attain.

I will make you Stewards of this Earth.
And so … it became so.

Grandfather Wisdom
crafted a grand plan for the Earth.
First, we add seeds of life,
single-celled animals
moving within the murkiness, then,
spiny creatures crawling upon the floor of the seas,
creeping animals and plants for the dry lands,
and so on and so on.

Finally, Grandmother Love
asked Grandfather Wisdom,
dear, has the time for humans come?
Grandfather said, Yes.

So together,
gathering up moist living soil,
fashioning it carefully,
wasting not a drop,
forming two statutes of earth,
like Grandfather and like Grandmother.

Then Grandfather and Grandmother
gave to them life and all of life’s possibilities.

Grandfather said,
let us join them together as he-she,
so to honor Awareness Absolute.

Grandfather said to man-half,
I shall give you my wisdom.
Grandmother said to woman-half,
I shall give you my love.

And Grandfather and Grandmother
taught he-she many useful things,
hunting, farming, cooking and such.
All seemed well,
and Grandfather and Grandmother
made many more,
sending them out into the world
to prosper and evolve.

But soon,
man-woman forgot about
Grandfather and Grandmother
and all of their teachings.
Men-women did many bad things and
became lost in the wilderness.

This made Grandfather and Grandmother very sad.

What shall we do, Grandfather?
It hurts me so,
seeing one child harming another.
I am afraid my tears will flow so copiously
that our children shall all drown in my sorrow.

Grandfather thought for a very long time–
he said, Grandmother,
we must send to them another gift of remembrance.
We shall reform them into two
and teach them of marriage.

Grandmother thought this a very good idea
and smiled.

So Grandfather and Grandmother
came to visit their children,
reminding them of how they came to be.
Soon, man-woman remembered
Grandfather and Grandmother.

Grandfather said, children,
far, far away, but also very close,
lives Awareness Absolute.
Awareness Absolute is the Eternal Source
for all things,
even old Grandfather and Grandmother.

Grandfather and Grandmother told stories
of all the wonders and goals
Awareness Absolute has for this planet.
And how someday,
if all is as it should be,
mankind may come and live in its lofty Abode.
For it is the Nature of Awareness Absolute to Give
as it is yours to Receive.

And then one, he-she asked,
Grandfather and Grandmother,
when we live with Awareness Absolute
are we to be like He-She is?

Grandmother smiled,
what a bright child you are!
But to live with Awareness Absolute
you must be as It is,
before you come to be there.
Grandfather, asked this he-she,
how do I do this?
Is it difficult?

Grandfather said,
I was wrong to fashion you in the image of the All,
for souls must be earned and not pre-given.
Your sins are of my making and not of your own.
I shall divide each into parts two,
one male and one female,
and scatter you to the winds.
And place within your heart
a remembrance of having been
once in the image of Awareness Absolute.

Grandmother smiled once more, saying,
Grandfather and I have made something
very, very special so to help you.
It is called Sacred Marriage.

From now until such time as
all are living with Awareness Absolute,
this is how grown little boys and girls
shall join together in a family.

So to be as one, once again,
you must find and join together
in body, mind and soul
and learn to love and care for the other
more than you love and care for yourself.
Just like I love and care for Grandfather and
he loves and cares for me.

Grandfather said,
and we shall make two other statues
called little boy and little girl.
And from out of the issue of union
of man and woman
shall come little boy and little girl.
And you both must learn to love
little boy and little girl,
provide a warm and safe home,
give them healthy food and water,
clothe them from the cold,
be mother and father till they leave home,
and teach them Love and Wisdom,
as we teach these things to you.

And if either betrays the other
or the children,
a great illness shall be given onto you
so to remind you of this unworthy sin.

But, if you strive to be together as one,
in body, mind and spirit,
you will live with Awareness Absolute
having learned how to give and how to receive in kind.

And this is how Marriage came into the world.

Esoteric Questions to Ponder and Answer-13

Hello Tyros +,

This question is for any member who acknowledges his or her “God of my Heart and Realization.”  Afterall, at the most basic level of communication the mystical experience is PERSONAL and not COMMUNAL.  Being so, today’s ponderous delight is:

QUESTION:  During a mystical experience, does the mystae experience the PsychoSpiritual contact directly with the Unfathomable, Unknowable, Eternal, Infinite Source, i.e., GOD, or is the experience actually between GOD, as an emanated archetype, or Sacred Image, placed into our universe as a fundamental which manifests based upon our person apperceptions?

Remember, dear ones, my questions are never designed as simple either-or questions.

Have fun, Michael

ps:  And some of you have thought the occultism challenging.

Carl Jung and Synchronicity

Fr Raul, sorry for my late response, but very busy.  I want to reply specifically to your discovery about how helpful answers are often provided to us in ways we never expect.

Carl Jung, the grand psychiatrist, taught the world many things about our psychological world experience and its connection to a higher reality.  I call this mental space, the PsychoSpiritual World.

Jung spent some 50 years evaluating the dreams of people in therapy and so came to know the psychospiritual world better than any prior student of the personal and collective psyches inhabiting our experiential sphere.

One of his discoveries concerned the occurrence of two events, not simultaneous, which on the surface appeared unrelated, but from a therapeutic perspective they shared a meaning. He called this phenomenon Synchronicity.

So the teaching, I provided in my book, House of Eternity: I. Rumination Upon Divinity, after your attempts to consciously connect with me in the Celestial Sanctum, a place I never fully leave anymore, for some metaphysical aid.  On the surface you felt that you could not find me or connect with my conscious mind, but in truth your heart found my heart and so I answered your question in a seemingly unrelated post. All of these occurring via the phenomenal, astral, or collective psyche.  R+C call this Cosmic Mind which is a close enough approximation.

This is a perfect example of synchronicity via the wisdom of the collective psyche.  Most people perceive the phenomenal worlds as a dream and usually without conscious awareness, but the higher awareness is often not appreciated by the normal awareness.

This is why I told dear Sr. Jessica that entities, or forces, residing in the phenomenal world are always trying to help us better deal with life so to make a soul.  Our problem is that we do not realize this truth and so close ourselves to such help.

I learned some 50 years ago something the R+C teach early in the Monographs.  That we need to open ourselves to the truth that our awareness possesses two levels of functioning:

(1) The lowest is everyday, mundane awareness (yes-no, like-dislike, pleasant-unpleasant, me-world and so on).  I call this ordinary awareness, or sensitivity.  The higher mammals possess sensitivity to the world.

(2)  The higher is found most easily during meaningful dreams when one finds “the observing function.”  The observing function is directly connected to the the higher awareness of the Cosmic Existence and is able to understand much better than the sensitivity.  This is rightly called Consciousness.

The problem is that most people never have discovered this as they matured.

When the lower and higher are working together we are able to serve the higher purposes of existence and are open to greater knowledge and understanding.  Some times it is even best to allow the higher to work without the lower even knowing so there is no interference.

I have never accepted the concept of the Master Within as a perfected being.  What is really experienced is our higher awareness which must be developed fully to become a full human.  Eventually, the lower serves the higher and the higher serves Creation, by choice.



EsoBites: Some Sacred Geometrical Questions

Greetings, dear Friends, hope everyone is tolerating the vicissitudes of the mundane.

Today, we are going to have some fun with geometry!  Don’t worry, it requires nothing more than your mind–and it does not require much more than high school geometry and algebra.

The mystical and occult literature has many interesting paradoxes involving God and Sacred Geometry.  Let me share some and a few I made up for you today:

1-dimensional version:  God is a Point which is everywhere and nowhere.

2-dimensional version: God is a Circle whose center is everywhere and its circumference nowhere. 

3-dimensional version:  God is a Sphere whose center is everywhere and its circumferential surface area is nowhere.


1.  What comprises the 4-dimensional analog?

2.  Tell me how the above three dimensional (spatial only) examples can be an accurate statement as to God?



A Joyous Easter To One And All


Many different types of eggs have been mentioned in esoteric literature–the Cosmic Egg, the Goose Who Laid Golden Eggs, and so.  The Easter Bunny fable is really about the beginnings of every creature.  So I offer this poem, not to the male powers, but to the wondrous female powers.  The Divine is a Tetrad and not a Trinity.


You, sweet love of my life,
shall dress yourself up, this year,
as a purple, furry, Miss Easter Bunny.

Boiled eggs, you shall dye in hues bright,
and upon each egg you shall paint
gay figures from ancient fairy tales.

The children with sparkling eyes,
shall search far and wide,
under bushes and stones
for Miss Bunny’s magical eggs.

And when the sun closes his eyes for the night,
and the children are tucked warmly into their beds,
my Easter Bunny will come to me naked,
and give to me the very best Easter Egg of All,
a Special Egg for making our first baby.