Month: September 2017

House of Eternity–A New Upanishad-21

16th Teaching – The Divine Word Of Brahman 

Krishna: Father, I have been reading the various Upanishads and the Brahma Sutra and find myself confused as to how the unfathomable , everlasting, pure, unchanging, imperishable, Source, Brahman, emanated this Universe. What do you say?

Father: Krishna, the deciphering of the ‘how and why’ the unfathomable, everlasting, pure, unchanging, imperishable Source, Brahman, empowered this Universe, requires prolonged, deep introspection by a Sage. Introspection going even beyond the four formless, immaterial jhanas designated as boundless space, boundless consciousness, nothingness, and neither-perception-nor-non-perception. They receive the designation “immaterial” or ” formless” (arupa) because they are achieved by surmounting all perceptions of material form, including the subtle form of the counterpart sign which served as the object of the previous jhanas, and because they are the subjective correlates of the immaterial planes of existence.

The existence of such states of consciousness are acknowledged by orthodox and heretical schools, Krishna. However, a ninth jhana has lain hidden from the Sages by the unchanging cloud cover over the highest peak of the mystical Mountain Meru. In our deepest meditations, Mother and I have traveled the unknown path through the unchanging clouds to the absolute peak of Mount Meru.

Krishna: Father, what did you and Mother discover?

Radha: Please tell us, Father. Please.

[setting] Suddenly, Father disappeared from his cushion. Above the platform, the children saw Father and Mother locked in heavenly union and all that existed was pure awareness and pure bliss. Radha quickly bowed down.

Radha: Krishna, bow down, bow down. Father and Mother are Buddha and His Consort, Vishnu and Lakshmi, and Lord Krishna and Lady Radha.

[setting] Krishna bowed down. From near and far away, Lady Radha spoke to the children.

Lady Radha: Those who have found the unknown path through the unchanging cloud cover of Mount Meru find six closed golden doors. Upon the face of each door are diagrams of mythical beasts composed of one particular precious gemstone for each door. The gemstones being alexandrite, diamond, emerald, ruby, sapphire, and opal. The doors do not stand still, three rotate clockwise and three rotate counterclockwise, each emitting a light of the same hue and vibratory levels as its gemstone. The first door is called the Power of Knowing, the second door the Power of Observing, the third the Power of Presence, the fourth the Power of Transcending, the fifth the Power of Intending, the sixth the Power of Caring-Compassion. The doors spelling out the First Word of Creation, the First Emanation from the Imperishable Source (Brahman), KOPTIC. This is the AUM of the Vedanta.

Lord Krishna: Beloved Ones, the doors are locked until the end of this universe at which time the fully enlightened Immortals will pass from the Born to the Unborn. This is how they survive the Grand Deflation – Inflation when the Old One births the New One.  All information remaining in the Old Universe is erased and karma, or entropy, returns to the null state, or maximum synentropy. Therefore, no evil is allowed to move from the Old into the New.

So the First Emanation of the Unfathomable Source is not Purusha, not Prakriti, not a Cosmic Person. The First Word is the Great Verb, the Great Function, the Great Qualia. The First Word manifests as the Unshakable Laws of Manifestation in all three worlds. This you shall learn soon.

The Cosmic Being, Ishvara, Purusha, or Atman comes as a later Emanation.

Lady Radhu: So allow your confusion to subside as a wave returning to the ocean, allow your confusion to be snuffed out as a candle by the winds. For this is what My Eternal Delight and Companion and I founded universes ago.

[setting] Father and Mother reappeared in their human forms and the children ran to hug them. And another Buddha and His Consort looked down upon them and smiled in Bliss.

The Miracle of the Djinn Resurrection Eve (4)

Commentary:  How do you know that you understand your God?  How do you know you know such God?  These two questions are critically important for every R+C Student.  I am forever surprised at the automatic resistance arising in people when you make slight changes as to the attributes and details of God by describing another realization.  People just shut there hearts and ears when names and forms change proving that they are really not in touch with the God of their own heart.  After all, God is truly formless, but appears as others believe God to Be.  Though God be formless, the Love, Wisdom, and Intentions are abundantly clear to those with eyes and ears which function.  I recommend paying attention to what is important and which leads to learning to love as God loves–our at least close.

This is the purpose of this excerpt from the book.  For God cares nothing for your images and descriptors, God cares that you come to understand God in your inner heart so to live godly lives.

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There was not a dry eye in the group. Not a dry eye, humbug, everyone was crying out of pure joy and happiness. The guests realized that the Resurrection Eve Story was ancient, but, the parts played by Gabriel and Alliona and the old Djinn were so real. As if, Gabriel and Alliona were the mystical couple and the Holy Mother and Father had visited. Alliona’s limp and twisted pelvis seemed so real in the mirror.

Sophie asked, “Alliona, it seemed so real, the story. It was like I was standing in the house with the young couple and the Holy Father and Holy Mother. How can this be? You looked so different and your poor pelvis was so badly deformed when you were naked that it made me want to hug you.”

Alliona smiled, “Sophie, you just experienced the Miracle of Resurrection Eve–the actual reliving of the events leading up the Conception of Ariel. This is why Djinn do not have to believe in the presence of the Holy Family in this universe, for the Holy Ones gave this gift to the Djinn because of the unconditional love of ONE young couple. They told us that we were to celebrate the Miracle every Resurrection Eve so to remind all of us of the power of unconditional love so we will never be misled into evil again.

“The Miracle first appeared at the end of the Great War, when the Holy Family brought the doctor and his Beloved into the Upper Worlds. And yes, Sophie, they did conceive another daughter before they departed. It was my great-granny. It was hundreds of thousands of years ago.”

“Wow,” was all Sophie could say.

The head kitchen granny approached Gabriel, a bit tipsy, though still most proper, “Gabriel, sorry, I mine Milord, may we retire to the kitchen so to bring out the meal?”

Gabriel had learned all the names of the grannies from Eleanor and he replied, “Astraceae, please do so. By the way, you can call me Gabriel–I have never liked Milord so much,” The grannies headed to the kitchen and everyone sat down.

Alliona went to the fireplace mantel and opened an ancient incense censor hanging from a hook. She took some embers from the fireplace and placed them into the censor. She stood up and retrieved a clay jar filled with large chunks of frankincense and myrrh. She took a handful and sprinkled them on top of the embers and closed the lid. She lit the wick of a large beeswax candle and held the lite candle in one hand and the censor in the other and returned to stand next to Gabriel.

Gabriel standing said, “It is the custom on Resurrection Eve for the mistress of the house to take the candle, symbolic of the Higher Light of Wisdom, so to illuminate her path as she censes this room. The smoke and fragrance of the incense symbolizing the Divine Love of the Holy Family.

“But, tomorrow, I will have two mistresses of this house and so Sophia, whose name means Wisdom, will carry the Holy Candle to Illuminate Alliona’s path as she Infuses the symbolic World with the Love of the Holy Family. Truly, Love and Wisdom seem as Two, while still One.

“Sophie and Alliona, I swear upon all that is Holy and Everlasting that I will honor, love, and cherish you both, equally and for all of Time. One day, you will discover that you are true sisters in a new Trinity.

“Tonight and forevermore, I will worship in love at your altars, as established by the Holy Family. So Mote It Be.

Brides thou beest on this the Resurrection Eve, but wives thou beest on the morrow. Sophie and Alliona, I love you beyond the bounds of this Universe. Darlings, cense the room for the Holy Supper.”

Sophie stood up and took the candle from Alliona and as Sophie led Alliona the room filled with the wondrous scent of frankincense and myrrh. Everyone was standing with their heads lowered in personal communion.

When the censing was done, Gabriel recited the Holy Pray and the dinner was served.

There is no time to describe the feast other than to mention than no meat dishes were served, for these must wait Resurrection Day. The family enjoyed,

sweet grain pudding with fresh heavy cream
unleavened round bread
stuffed cabbage rolls
small dumplings with mushrooms
dumplings with cabbage and potatoes
slow cooked kidney beans with potatoes, garlic, and seasoning
small biscuits with poppy seeds and honey

And, of course, spiced mead. Toasts continued through the meal which the grannies sat down to enjoy. Everyone was pleasantly warm and tipsy.

The golden halo again appeared above her head, as Alliona stood and prophesied, “Some day, hundreds of thousands of years from now, the villagers will swear, most solemnly upon the Holy Book, that the Love which shone from the hearts of those, present this evening, was so pure that the Holy Family came to share the Feast and the Third Great Miracle came to be. Truly, the villagers shall claim, that on this very night, Ariel, the Daughter of God, descended into Alliona and Sophie and both became true daughters of the Holy Family. On that night, one of the most celebrated nights in future Djinn history, Gabriel worshiped with such love and devotion at the Altars of Sophie and Alliona that the gift of a Holy Child was given onto each Beloved Wife. The love of three being at last unconditional so that Ariel could confer Immortality.

“If you ask the Djinn how they know this story is true, they will show you an old parchment codex filled with ink drawings of the time the Holy Daughters spent with the Djinn and the Miracles they performed. They called themselves the Sisters of the Returning Savior, their Sister Ariel. And Ariel did come once again to the Djinn and the Djinn came to live in fullness, as the race had done in the old universe. And each will bow his or her head and place both hands over the heart region and recite, ‘Glory to the Most High for the Fourth Miracle, Amen. “

As Alliona sat down by Gabriel, the stardust on the Resurrection Tree began to glow more brightly. Sparks of golden – silver brilliance flew from the Tree into the room, piercing the hearts of all present. With each heart piercing, the miracle of unconditional love for others was no longer speculative. A soft feminine voice spoke to each, “Child, the Greatest Miracle of All Miracles is knowing Unconditional Love. So make it permanent. Never forget that the Holy Family loves you.”

The light of the Tree returned to its previous state. No one knew what to say. Gabriel stood up and said, “Often, words will desert you when unconditional love is felt. But, you can show it by action. Try hugging each other and you will understand.”

And everyone hugged their nearest neighbors and felt the true peace of Love. With the end of each hug, each received another gift. Each knew for a second, the Unending Suffering felt by the Holy Family for the injustice and injury caused to others by egoism.

Gabriel said, “Each must decide which path to travel.”

THE END

Resurrection Eve — 34.3

Holy Mother spoke in the kindest of voices saying, “On the small table rest two seeds. The golden seed is to be swallowed by you, grandson. The silver seed is to be swallowed by you, granddaughter. Drop your gown, granddaughter, show me your pelvis.”

The wife dropped her robe and looked at herself in a large mirror which appeared from nowhere.

The young wife saw her misshaped pelvis in the mirror and felt so ashamed of her ugliness. She tried to hide her deformity but she was unable to do so. She started to cry. Her husband grabbed her into his arms and turned her face away from the mirror saying, “Honey, when I look at you I have always seen you perfect. You are the only wife I ever wanted and we shall be together for all our lives. Please, Holy Mother don’t make her look into the mirror again.”

Holy Mother replied, “Doctor, turn your wife to the mirror. It is my demand.”

The young husband turned his wife and himself so to look into the mirror. Holy Mother said, “Observe the power of the unconditional love you possess for each other. Sufficient Love works miracles. Grandfather, look how very beautiful our little granddaughter is. She is no longer crippled and all is repaired. She will make a wonderful grandchild for us to love. ”

Her pelvis and lower body were as they would have looked without the accident. She turned all the way around to see. She was without pain and had no limp. She called to her husband, “Oh, Husband, I can give to you a child. I am fully happy at long last.”

Holy Father said, “Take the seeds as my Beloved instructed you. For these seeds will combine with your own seeds so to prepare a vessel for our Holy Daughter, Bitya. She is a Savior and will end this needless war and banish evilness to a place where it will remain.”

The two ingested his or her respective seed with some spiced honey mead. When, they looked up, Holy Father and Holy Mother had vanished into the cold night leaving all the outerwear. The young wife said, “Come Husband, I am whole and I want to be with you.”

The young doctor was again Gabriel and the young wife was again Alliona. Alliona finished the story, “The husband and wife left to their bedroom and a beautiful girl was born nine months later. She was named Ariel, the Lioness. And it is her Holy Conception, as a Djinn, that we celebrate on Resurrection Eve.”

TO BE CONTINUED

Resurrection Eve–Glory to the Most High 34-2

Story continued below:

The elderly man said, in a shaky voice, “Please, kind lady and kind sir, my beloved wife is so cold and so tired. May we warm ourselves by your hearth? We were banished from our church three nights ago and everyone is so afraid to help two elderly Djinn because of the War. We have no more food. I will gladly remain outside, but please take Grandmother into your home?”

The young wife replied, “Damn those Djinn. We are not afraid of them. Please, Grandmother and Grandfather come inside. We are not rich in goods, but we love Holy Father and Holy Mother and do Good Works in their Name. My beloved husband is a wonderful doctor. I am a herbalist.”

The two householders helped Grandfather and Grandmother into their home. They removed Grandmother’s and Grandfather’s wet outerwear, sat them side- by-side on a bench close to the fire.

The doctor examined their hands and feet and announced that they had no frost bite. “Beloved get some of the ointment you made the other day and I will rub it on their hands and feet and they will be fine.”

The young wife handed them mugs of spiced honey mead. She said, “Do not talk, just drink your mead so to warm your insides. My Precious, my Husband, go to the kitchen and bring some of my little poppy seed and honey buns for our guests. The ointment is in the cupboard. I am sorry, but my pelvis has been hurting very much, but I did not want to complain.”

He hurried to the kitchen and returned with the ointment and the buns and some soft butter. He spread the butter on some buns and hand one to each to eat. Grandfather and Grandmother ate quite a few buns, as they were hungry.

The young husband rubbed the ointment into the hands and feel of the elderly Djinn. He knew that his wife was in much pain and his heart ached so very much for her.

After they were warmed and full, Grandmother turned to Grandfather with tears in her eyes saying,” Grandfather, I told you, Goodness and Compassion still lives in this World. All is not lost.”

Grandfather replied, “It is true Grandmother, it is true.”

Grandmother said, “Sweet Child, I see that it is not so easy for you to move about and you have a limp. I also see that your husband’s heart suffers silently for you. Child, his love for you could not be any purer than it is.”

The young wife said, taking her husband’s hand into her own, “Yes Grandmother, I broke my pelvis when I was a child and it did not heal properly, so one side is shorter that the other so I must limp. My pelvis is very deformed and twisted and I hate to be seen naked. But, my Husband always tells me that I am the most beautiful Djinn he ever met and he desires me. I do not see how this can be so, but it does not matter for we can make love and we are satisfied. I do know that the Holy Father and Holy Mother found me the most decent and loving husband ever. So I am thankful for my accident for I know he loves me more than he loves himself. And dearest Grandmother, I love him, but still I wish that I could give him a child.”

“It is true Grandfather and Grandmother, she is the prettiest and kindness wife in the world and I love her very much,” finished the husband. “Enough, of us. Please tell us your tale.”

Grandfather began to tell what had happened to them, “The evil Djinn had come to our village for provisions. A young officer walked into our village church where I am Pope. He said he had orders to burn the church and dispose of us. He was alone and told us that he is forced to obey orders, but he will not kill innocent children and grandparents.

‘I must burn the church, but I do not have to kill you, the orders said to dispose of you. Grandmother, go to your kitchen and pack cheese and bread. Grandfather, go and get your fur coats, mittens, hats, and boots. Bring everything back here as fast as you can.’

We followed his directions and he told us to dress and tie our food inside our coats so it would not freeze. He said to Grandmother, ‘Your scarf is not warm enough, here take mine. You must walk far from here and look for some people to take you in, your neighbors are too afraid to help.’

Then, he shooed us out the door and burned the church. As we watched the church go up in flames, Grandmother said, ‘Grandfather, he is not a bad boy, just confused.’

We have walked for three days and you are the only Djinn willing to help us.”

The young wife had big tears in her eyes and hugged Grandmother, “I am so sorry, Grandmother. It was not like this in the beginning when Lord Gabriel saved all of the Djinn. My Husband and I do not have parents or grandparent and you may stay, as part of our little family. Right, Honey.”

“Of course, Beloved. We cannot have children because of your broken pelvis, but we can have Grandparents to love.”

Grandmother and Grandfather looked at each other smiling. Grandfather said, “Grandmother, we have found them. These are the special Djinn. It is time for our Miracle.”

The young couple did not understand, at first. But, a golden light began to emanate from both of the guests and soon all the couple could see were two light forms. The young wife said, “Husband, it is the Holy Father and the Holy Mother, they are in our home.” Both bowed very deeply.

To Be Continued

Resurrection Eve – Glory To The Most High (34)-1

Commentary:  It is always good to read about and practice unconditional love while incarnate.  Therefore, I am going to share a special holiday tale about the Djinn and what unconditional love can accomplish with just one couple.  It is from the book Conversations with a Rose-Croix.  It will take 4 or 5 posts, I think. Enjoy.

This Djinn holiday is on the same day as Orthodox Christmas–January 7, 2017

The sun was setting and Alliona whispered in Gabriel’s ear, “Husband, it is time to begin the Resurrection Eve Miracle. Oh darling, such a special and Holy Night it shall be. Thank you for everything. Every time, the Miracle recurs, I feel the love that the young wife must have felt for her husband. I do understand her desire to give to her husband a child.” Alliona took Gabriel’s right hand, bringing it to her lips to kiss. Later, everyone watching agreed that a golden halo of light appeared and shone above her head for several minutes.

Gabriel put his arm around Alliona and announced, “Dearest Friends, our celebration for Resurrection Eve will begin soon. So please stand and bow your heads as we offer a prayer of thankfulness to Our Holy Father and Holy Mother. I will recite one line at a time and then you shall repeat it:

Great Father-Mother, our Fountain,
Who liveth within our hearts eternal,
Sacred is Thy Name,
for in Thy Name all of existence arises and passes,
returning to Thee at the exigent of ends.

Provideth us this day,
life-sustaining nourishment,
both material and supernal.

Forgiveth us our ignorance in action,
our misunderstandings, our aggressive moments,
encouraging us evermore to make peace with our neighbor.

Help us disregard the voice of the Tempter,
not matter how sweet and melodious it sounds,
by reminding us that we are your Children and not His.

For Thy Home is our mansion,
Thy Goodness our goodness,
Thy Knowing our knowing,
Thy Being our being,
Thy Observing our observing,
Thy Intending our intending.

For it shall come to be, someday,
that our Land is as a Heaven,
ruled by Mercy and Justice,
Forever and forever.

As the group recited this wondrous prayer, the stardust upon the Resurrection Tree responded by twinkling most brilliantly.

Gabriel began the story, “Once, a very long time ago, a young couple lived in a village in the dark forests. The man was a doctor and his young wife was a herbalist. They had no children as his wife had broken her pelvis as a young girl and so could not give birth. She walked with a rather bad limp and her husband had to carry her sometimes for she experienced episodes of deep pain.

The man had met her once in a much larger village where she had gone because of her pain. She fell in love as soon as she met him and he did the same. He treated her pain and she was much better and so could be a herbalist for the surrounding villages.

He would travel often to her village to see how she was doing and to suggest certain herbal potions.

One day the doctor asked her to marry him. She told the young doctor, ‘I love you with all of my heart, but I cannot bear children because of my accident. You will be repulsed, when you see my deformed, twisted, bony pelvis. I am so ugly below my waist. I am unable to do hard labor and would not be the wife, a fine man, as you should have.

The doctor said, ‘I will marry you and if you are unable to do something, I will do it for you. I don’t care about your pelvis or your limp, I care about your heart. Anyway, no Djinn lady is as beautiful and as kind as you. Yes, my love, I will marry you.”

And dear Friends, this is exactly what they did and he moved to her village and was the best doctor the village ever had. The old grannies were very sorry for both of them as they had no other family members and would have no children to take care of them when they grew old. But, as grannies are apt to do, they took turns on holidays to bring the couple to their homes. But there is more to come. Now, the miracle will be related.”

A clangor was heard and Gabriel and Alliona went to open the front door to the Inn. But, as they approached the door the clothes they wore changed and they were no longer Gabriel and Alliona, but another couple.

A great blizzard was blowing and everyone felt the cold air entering into the room with the open door Standing in the threshold, bent over and wearing fur hats, fur mittens, fur hats, and fur boots, were two elderly Djinn.

TO BE CONTINUED

The Vrishni Upanishad-19

Commentary:  Same discourse, new name.  Vrishni is the Sanskrit term for the heretical, which jives (pun ‘jivas’) with the Institute very well.  For a true Seeker never buys fully into any philosophical view (including those of the Institute) , understanding that one must always remain open in new direct insight and scripture if the goal is the Unborn.

15th Teaching – The Great Deflation and Inflation

Commentary: Over the millennia, many Sages and Seers have speculated upon how a Universe moves from Being to Becoming. Today, we offer the viewpoint of our School based upon deep introspection by Initiates since time immemorial. It jives with modern physics rather well, but is much more expansive.

Lady Radha: Dear Husband, whom I love more than I love myself, please tell our children and the Gopika the story of how we made our Universe as Brahman, the Unfathomable, Imperishable, Endlessness Source.

Lord Krishna: It shall be as you wish, most Precious One.

The Rishis and Sages having the clearest vision,
those who traveled the deepest within,
were guided to a hidden root of the World Tree.

Burnt into the surface of this root
were inscribed the following Sutra:

Before your time was Time,
before your space was Space,
another time and space there was.

The Universe which was before
expanded into its empty space
and so cooled under natural law.

Over an unmeasurable time span,
the Universe cooled and cooled,
until one day, as a matter of Law,
a fragment of the Geometria of Space
experienced the state of null temperature.

At that long-foreseen moment,
a local phase change originated,
opening up unseen dimensions,
allowing the horizons of a myriad of dark holes,
each connected to the others
by space unavailable to Creation,
to instantaneously expand so to
encompass all of that Universe.

Then, in no more than a Brahman Moment (10-44 seconds),
the spatial extent of the old Universe
collapsed into a single Brahman Point,
of 12+ collapsed and obverse spatial dimensions.

What had been was erased and was no more.
All that had been actualized, made again into possibilities,
the Rishis call this the Inbreath of Brahman.

The last moment of an old Universe
is the first moment of the new Universe,
for there is no Time when Time is not present,
no Time when a Brahman Point is not present.

With the deflation of the old
came the inflation of the new.
Where the Brahman Point, like a lotus flower,
unfolded into eight obverse space petals,
surrounding a still closed foursome.

In one Brahman Moment, the size of space was reset,
posing as a three dimensional net fully expanded,
the fourth open, but unseen.

In the initial moments of early life,
superheated food from the prior
radiated into the new,
as new space became available.

All in the form of Light alone,
for Light is the Word of Brahman,
best imagined in its Male Gender aspect,
ever-ready to inseminate itself in its Female Aspect,
as Mother Space Herself.

With the entrance of Light Holy
came the Laws of temporal actualization of the Possibilities
conceived by Brahman during the Brahman Moment.

With the entrance of Light Holy
came insemination of Mother‘s Womb,
this 12 dimensional geometrical net
possessing Brahman Polyhedrons
stacked in space, of Brahman length,
containing all possible vibratory modes
for appearance of the three worlds.

All is massless light when in motion,
but, takes on momenergy when measured at rest.

The coming of the New is called Outbreath of Brahman,
being the Preparatory Emanations into reopened Space.

The Scripture burnt onto the roots of the World Tree state,
First to be emanated was the Light of the Holy Word
the continuous outpouring of Brahman,
as the Six Holy Qualia.

Second to be emanated was Cosmic Law,
the Voice of Brahman ordering all three worlds,
establishing Rita, Dharma, and Maat.

Third to be emanated were the Establishment Energies,
coming in the order of conscious (upper),
Animate (middle), Inanimate (lower).

When all preliminaries were completed,
Brahman, once again, willed into existence,
Its Ever-loving, Ever-giving, Cosmic Self,
as Purusha-Prakriti, Krishna-Radha, Buddha-Consort.
A Tangible Form for creatures to love and feel loved by,
so to help on the Path of Reintegration.

In this Form, Krishna-Radha
entered into Divine Intercourse,
willing into being the uncountable soul-seeds.

A Godhead concentrating and radiating into Creation
the Six Holy Qualia, so to provide a return path.

After all was completed,
the Universe began its journey from a beginning to an end,

Way of the Gallant Heart

Lover’s Garden

The other day, I stopped to rest,
upon the hillside dune above our nest,
seeking shade, ‘neath the stately palm.

I sat, waiting for you, my honeyed date,
my love, my friend, my darling mate,
to emerge with beating, silken-gossamer wings.

Morning still, air fresh and crisp,
sharp contrast to evening’s will-o’-the-wisp,
my Love, she comes to tend her blooms.

Such a garden, my love has made,
fountains with laughing bubbles well-laid,
singing songs of peace for all the world.

If my Love, can make an earthly paradise,
air filled with myrrh, frankincense, and spice,
just from human heart and hand.

My mind and heart reel out of control,
to imagine the grand depth
of Divinity’s Love and Mercy,
even for this sinful, pitiful man.