The Suffering Train

Dear Ones, the revealed religions tend to stress that the suffering, we experience in our mundane life arises from the sins we knowingly or unknowingly commit each and every day. Does not the Bible teach that those who life a righteous life according to the Law will be rewarded, if not now, in the future? That wickedness will be punished.

Psalm 75 21st Century King James Version (KJ21)

75 Unto Thee, O God, do we give thanks, unto Thee do we give thanks. For that Thy name is near, Thy wondrous works declare.

2 When I shall receive the congregation, I will judge uprightly.

3 When the earth and all the inhabitants thereof are dissolved, I bear up the pillars of it. Selah

4 I said unto the fools, “Deal not foolishly,” and to the wicked, “Lift not up the horn.

5 Lift not up your horn on high; speak not with a stiff neck.”

6 For promotion cometh neither from the east, nor from the west, nor from the south,

7 but God is the Judge: He putteth down one, and setteth up another.

8 For in the hand of the Lord there is a cup, and the wine is red and fully mixed; and He poureth out the same. But as for the dregs thereof, all the wicked of the earth shall wring them out and drink them.

9 But I will declare it for ever; I will sing praises to the God of Jacob.

10 All the horns of the wicked will I also cut off, but the horns of the righteous shall be exalted.

But, I know that much of our personal suffering, though not sent by the Divine to us, is always attached to the comfort and wisdom of the Holy Spirit.

Psalm 73 21st Century King James Version (KJ21)

73 Truly God is good to Israel, even to such as are of a clean heart.

2 But as for me, my feet were almost gone; my steps had well nigh slipped.

3 For I was envious of the foolish when I saw the prosperity of the wicked.

4 For there are no bands in their death, but their strength is firm.

5 They are not in trouble as other men; neither are they plagued like other men.

6 Therefore pride compasseth them about as a chain; violence covereth them as a garment.

7 Their eyes stand out with fatness; they have more than heart could wish.

8 They are corrupt, and speak wickedly concerning oppression; they speak loftily.

9 They set their mouth against the heavens, and their tongue walketh through the earth.

10 Therefore His people return hither, and waters of a full cup are wrung out to them.

11 And they say, “How doth God know? And is there knowledge in the Most High?”

12 Behold, these are the ungodly, who prosper in the world; they increase in riches.

13 Verily I have cleansed my heart in vain and washed my hands in innocence.

14 For all the day long have I been plagued and chastened every morning.

15 If I say, “I will speak thus,” behold, I should offend against the generation of Thy children.

16 When I thought to understand this, it was too painful for me,

17 until I went into the sanctuary of God. Then understood I their end:

18 surely Thou didst set them in slippery places. Thou didst cast them down into destruction!

19 How they are brought into desolation, as in a moment! They are utterly consumed with terrors!

20 As a dream when one awaketh, so, O Lord, when Thou awakest, Thou shalt despise their image.

21 Thus my heart was grieved, and I was pricked in my reins.

22 So foolish was I and ignorant; I was as a beast before Thee.

23 Nevertheless I am continually with Thee; Thou hast held me by my right hand.

24 Thou shalt guide me with Thy counsel and afterward receive me to glory.

25 Whom have I in heaven but Thee? And there is none upon earth that I desire beside Thee.

26 My flesh and my heart faileth, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion for ever.

27 For lo, they that are far from Thee shall perish; Thou hast destroyed all them that go a whoring from Thee.

28 But it is good for me to draw near to God. I have put my trust in the Lord God, that I may declare all Thy works.

For, I have learned how to use life’s eventual suffering, personal or accepted from others, to climb closer to the Divine by working to see the Good within all those whom contain such.

Climb aboard the Suffering Train, it leaves every moment for the Higher Word. I promise you.


The True Meaning of Fasting

The True Meaning of Fasting

Quite often,  seekers ask me whether or not I find fasting to be spiritually helpful.

The first question, I ask concerns their understanding or personal practice of fasting? Answers always concern abstinence from food and drink..  He or she describes the details of foods they eat and avoid, liquids they drink and avoid, and the length of the fast.

The second question, I ask is why they fast?  Invariably, the individual responds, I fast for spiritual benefit.

The third question, I ask is to explain the scientific basis, as to why abstinence from material sustenance can possibly help one spiritually?  I have yet to hear a rational answer.

Then, I inform them that most spiritual seekers have completely misunderstood the nature of fasting.  True spiritual fasting is  a spiritual practice to work so to be abstinent in committing unwholesome actions, words, and thoughts.  For spiritual progress requires spiritual work–abstinence from sinning or missing the mark.  Physical health requires physical work.

After all, a seeker can just as easily attune with his or her personal God without physical fasting.  All one needs is a quiet moment.




Thirteen Useful Quotes From St. Augustine

“Love is the beauty of the Soul.”

“It was pride that changed the angels into devils; it is humility that makes men as angels.”

“Hear the other side.”

“This is the very perfection of a man, to find out his own imperfections.”

“What does love look like? It has the hands to help others. It has the feet to hasten to the poor and needy. It has eyes to see misery and want. It has the ears to hear the sighs and sorrows of men. That is what love looks like.”

“Do you wish to rise? Begin by descending. You plan a tower that will pierce the clouds? Lay first the foundation of humility.”

“A lie consists in speaking a falsehood with the intention of deceiving.”

“One never errs more safely than when one errs by too much loving the truth.”

“Nothing so clearly discovers a spiritual man as his treatment of an erring brother.”

“God judged it better to bring good out of evil than to suffer no evil to exist.”

“The single desire that dominated my search for delight was simply to love and to be loved.”

“To seek the highest good is to live well.”

“The words printed here are concepts. You must go through the experiences.”




“Gabriel says there are two ways to approach the Holy Family, as far as prayer is concerned. He says that prayer is like a magnet having a North and a South Pole. Upon one pole of this magnet rests the prayer called prophetic prayer. Upon the other rests mystical prayer. He says that they are vastly different ways for humanity to approach the Holy Family.”

Gabriel wrote in his Codex, “Every man, woman, and child is able to pray.  Prayer is innate to human psychology. Today, I want to offer an accurate and essential definition of prayer.

“PRAYER is a living, conscious communication with God, a God conceived of as personal and present in experience, a communion which is in the form of a our evolutionary relationships.

“Three elements are present in religious prayer: First, the person praying sincerely believes he or she is speaking with the God of his or her Heart and Realization. Second. such God is intimately personally present and attentive. Third, that God and the person experience a true heart to heart communication.

“Reflecting upon the above definition, it is clear that classical, mystical contemplation and absorption are not PRAYER, as the mystic seeks the impersonal, Highest Good, or Highest Beauty, and desires to loss his or her personal identity within such.”

“If I understand Gabriel correctly,” said Sister Agnes Louise, “We must refer back to his lesson concerning the Holy Family as being the first manifestation of the Endless Timeless Source, or Brahman. If you remember, as Brahman is the Original, Boundless, Eternal Totality which cannot be described positively or negatively, the best that the human mind can accomplish is accept the Buddhist Four Fold Logic which allows every conceivable explanation, even though Brahman is more.

“The only way that Brahman can act within a limited Universe is to reduce Itself from an Absolute Infinity to a Finite, bounded region, by withdrawing a portion of Its Essential Nature from said Universe.

“Gabriel says, ‘The Kabbalist Luria realized the Creator must withdraw Itself from a portion of Infinite Space so to manifest a physical and psychic world. He called such Self-Limitation, Tzimtzum. Gabriel admits that he was well known to Luria.’

“Therefore, the Limited Brahman manifests as Holy Father and Holy Mother, as we discussed earlier. Moreover, the form which is experienced by a person praying corresponds to that conceived by the person. In truth, none of the Holy Family possess inherent form, but this is of little matter as far as humans are concerned.”

Sister Anna Marie commented, “So, in order to have a personal experience with a member of the Holy Family, we must create a Sacred Image, or a Divine Mold, which they can inhabit so we can have a personal, loving experience with them. Clever. This way they can help all conscious creatures everywhere in the Universe, presuming that the human form is not unique.”

Sister Agnes Louise paused, saying, “Gabriel says, ‘That there are many kinds of creatures in our Universe, some in the physical, some only in the Oneirion World.’ In one section of his Codex, he tells of his experiences with the Djinn, who look just like humans.”

“It is true Grandmother. I have met many curious creatures in my dreamtime. I love dreaming so very much,” I added.

Sister Agnes Louise continued, “If one studies the early cultures of our species, such as those found in the pre-Upanishad Vedas of the Indo-Aryans, we discover that primitive prayers are trine in expression. Do not think that moderns have abandoned this prayer triune, just ask some church goers.

The first member of the triune is called a ‘petitionary prayer.’ Moreover, it is likely that petitionary prayers were the earliest free and spontaneous outpourings of the human heart. Such petitions arise easily in times of great emotional upheaval such as acute anxiety, fear, vexation, hate, sorrow, worry and other psychic upsets. They express themselves via the will to live in situations of passionate struggle and longing for self-preservation, deliverance or turning aside of threatened danger.

“Prayer is always found when an individual consciousness realizes that it can do nothing and so he or she places reliance upon mightier beings who are in charge of his or her fate.

“In situations in which a person finds that he or she is helpless to avert the danger, he or she innately calls upon and invokes the immediate help of a powerful ancestor, nature spirit, or a local deity. Post-enlightenment proponents claim that in times of danger, the emotional overload causes them to regress to child state when they were protected by their parents.

“Gabriel teaches that such regression does occur, but this is not the proper explanation. The true emotional driver for such prayers for assistance is not found within the personality per se, but arises from the divine soul-seed present in all normal humans. For the soul-seed is our personal vessel, or kli, so to receive Light from the Noble Organ which is our connection to the Holy Family. Such Light coming as useful information on how to act.




The Sisters arose each morning, as the sun was rising, so to say prayers in the little chapel. Sister Anna Marie said that I had to stay in bed until breakfast, as she wanted me to grow up properly so she could marry me.

One morning after Sister Anna Marie was done tickling me, I asked, “Mummy, how were new babies fed before anyone invented glass bottles to hold milk?”

Sister Anna Marie replied, “You are such a clever boy. I am sure that if I could have our baby someday, he or she would be very smart. I think I would want a little girl first. Would this be ok with you, my sweetheart?”

“That would be very nice for then we could raise her as you should have be raised,” I responded.

Anticipating the next most probable question from my productive mind, she said, “Time for breakfast. Then, chores. Do you love me?”

“I love you all the way to Heaven and maybe even more. You and I are spiritually one,” I said, as I hugged her.

Sister Anna Marie was very entertaining at breakfast, as we were allowed to chat only at this meal. All the Sisters enjoyed the reborn Sister Anna Marie, I am sure that each thanked Our Lady in their prayers for the miracle of her healing. I was content to be with the Sisters and never wanted to leave them.

After all our chores were completed, we took the bus to see Sister Agnes Louise. I adored Sister Agnes Louise as she was so smart and so important as Gabriel let her guard his Codex.

As usual, we found Sister working in her flower garden. I ran to hug her. She loved flowers and told me, “Miguel, each little flower in our big world was created by Holy Mother so to remind us of her Endless Love.”

The Third Lesson

Sister Agnes Louise asked Sister Anna Marie, “Child, how is Miguel doing with his reading?”

Sister Anna Marie answered, “My son is doing excellent. His vocabulary grows by leaps and bounds everyday. I introduce ten new words a day. He must memorize each word and its meaning. Then, he must be able to recognize and pronounce it properly from a list I make up of past words. He can actually read many passages of the New Testament and explain them to me.”

“My, oh my, such a clever boy. Miguel, do you like to read,” asked Sister Agnes Louise?

“Oh, yes, Sister. I learn so many things reading the Bible. And Mummy is the best teacher. I am proud of my Mummy,” I replied.

“This is excellent. For today, we shall discuss what Gabriel has written as to proper prayer. It seems that he has studied the various prayer methods utilized by mankind since the earliest times. From my reading, Gabriel is a very wise person and I can see why Our Lord cared about him so very much.”

“Miguel, would you like to read from his Codex at one of our lessons,” asked Sister Agnes Louise?

“Yes, very much. But, only if Mummy can see the Codex too,” I replied. “I would like to meet Gabriel one day, as I know he is still alive. He is my hero. I love you very much Sister Agnes Louise.

“Of course, she may read and touch the Codex. She is your eternal partner, remember, little warrior. Some days, I am amazed with your words, Miguel. You seem so sure of yourself,” responded Sister Agnes Louise.”

“Did Sister Anna Marie tell you that one day she and I will incarnate Lady Ariel, I asked?”

Sister Agnes Louise replied, most surprised, “Child, you want to make a baby with Sister? You want Anna Marie to bear the Holy Daughter?”

I replied, “I want to make a baby with Sister Anna Marie for Holy Mother says that making a baby is a most holy act. When, I am all grown up, that is.  All I know is that I love Ariel, I love Holy Mother, I love Sister Anna Marie and you. I think Holy Father is happy with me.”

Sister Anna Marie gave me a big hug saying, “To make a baby with you is a most sacred act. I love you more that you can imagine, my darling. My heart is forever yours.”

Sister Agnes Louis was amazed at the quality of our love for she understood that both of us had lived many lives together as committed reincarnating individuals. She returned to our lesson saying, “Gabriel begins his analysis by noting that ancient prayers came from the heart and not the mind.


The primary reason, I am taking the time to share the parable of my life is to demonstrate that all spiritual study is a waste of time, if it is not reflected in your mundane life.  For your daily life is where the compassionate and generous urges of the God of your Heart and Realization are to be performed.  For you do not love your God unless you do your best to love the least of those in unfortunate circumstances.  Yes, we all need Grace, but Grace without good works is hollow indeed.

I tell you of the love I found as a young child, innocent and pure, as I hope my story touches your heart and opens up the closed channel connecting us to the Noble Organ.

I have been a Rav for a very long time and have met many seekers, new and ancient.  During this time, I have learned a most important lesson, the greatest lesson, the lesson taught by the Pharisees and Christians from the earliest times.  If you cannot love your neighbor MORE than your own Ego, you need to try harder.  For the ones the Holy Family choose, so to return as prophets and teachers, and guides, have learned to love as taught by Lord Jesus and Lord Krishna.

So do not waste this incarnation, I beg all of you.


Then, Sister Agnes Louise produced our birthday present to Mummy. Sister Agnes Louis had wrapped it very nicely. Rita brought white roses to the table in a vase. As everyone stood totally enchanted by the miracle of Holy Love, Mummy slowly opened her present. “I never ever had a present before for any reason, but this must be the best present in the whole world for it comes from my beautiful son and his special grandmother. And the best present must come with white roses.”

“Thank you, dearest Rita, Jose, and all your gentle, God-Loving people. To share this birthday with you, makes all the missed birthdays of no importance.”

Rita said, “Darling, open our gift. Let us see what it is.”

Sister Anna Marie took the gift, lifted it up, and turned it in every which way so to appreciate it. She very carefully and attentively looked for where the tape was, so not to tear the wrapping paper. When she found a place to open the gift she gently pried the tape loose and soon the gift was in her plain view.

On top of the Bible was the card that I colored for Mummy and which both Sister Agnes Louise and I had signed. Mummy picked it up and opened it to see the drawing. She exclaimed, “Miguel, you are a very good artist. I can identify myself, I see you all grown up, there is Sister Agnes Louise, and a man with long hair whom I do not recognize. I see I am sitting in a chair nursing a little infant girl. It that our little angel, the baby we will make one day, Miguel. I also see that Holy Mother is with us and everyone is smiling.

“Who is the man with long hair, Honey?”

I answered, “That is Gabriel Mummy. He is with us to celebrate the incarnation of the Holy Daughter Ariel, who is very special to him. Do you like my future picture, Mummy?”

“Oh yes, darling. It is my only dream.”

She passed the card around to the staff. She picked up the Bible and opened it. Inside, she read, “To my beloved Granddaughter on her first birthday. May she always remember the Holy Family.”

Turning to Sister Agnes Louise, she asked, “Sister is this Bible from your Grandmother? It is so precious.”

Sister Anna Marie rose from her chair and came to kiss and hug both of us. Then, she turned to the restaurant staff saying, “I am so grateful to all of you for making such a grand birthday for me. I have never felt very special, but your kindness teaches me that all of the Holy Family’s creatures are special. God Bless all of you,”

As I gazed around the room, I saw that I was not the only one with tears running down my cheeks. Everyone was crying as they shared the joy of Sister Anna Marie.

As for myself, this day remains the most precious day in my life, for this is the day that my soul-wife discarded her past and finalized our eternal bond.

The birthday party continued a little longer. Soon it was time, to return home, Sister Agnes Louise to the convent and Mummy and I to our little bedroom. All of us thanked the staff in the restaurant for such a special day and for sharing in the miracle which occurred. Everyone got a hug from Sister Anna Marie, Rita and the female staff all gave me a kiss on the cheek.

Sister Anna Marie and I walked from the restaurant to the bus stop. I had fallen asleep on the bus and so Mummy carried me in her arms, as I was not very heavy. She undressed me and lay me in our bed. Then, she undressed herself. She cuddled me, saying, “Sweetheart, I must be the luckiest lady in the world for I have found my true soul-partner. I have never felt so loved, as when we are together. Thank you for my surprise party, including, our time in the library. Truly, you and I are as one.”

I wasn’t asleep when she put me to bed so I replied, “I agree, my precious Anna Marie. I adore you in every way you can imagine. But, tomorrow, we must do our anatomy lesson, OK?”

Anna Marie squeezed me very tight, “You are a rascal, my beloved. If I did not know better, I would think you were a grown man and we were married at last. Every night, I pray to have our family. I know you will take good care of our family for you take the most tender care of me already. Goodnight, Honey.”

I replied, “Goodnight, Mummy. I will come into your dreams tonight all grown up. Love you,” Soon, we were both sound asleep, immersed in our common dreamtime.

to be continued